So it's nearly my birthday. Again. That tends to happen. You know how it is.
The last year had been a good one. And then three months ago, everything changed. Well, you know, not everything. But all the important things. The things I thought I knew about myself. The labels I applied to where I was and what I was doing.
So my self-perception and understanding is in need of an overhaul. And it's nearly my birthday, and I will be 24. Which means just over a year until the big scary quarter-century. I've been quarter-life-crisising for a while now, but it is becoming more acute and I need to address it, somehow.
So I made a decision: This will be my year of learning. I love learning, I love knowledge and understanding and analysis. That's why I'm studying Psychology. I think I'm pretty good at knowing myself, why I do certain things and think certain things, but actually acknowledging and dealing with that stuff - let alone changing it - can be hard, and scary. So I avoid it.
But I think this is the year to do it. And because I am self-absorbed, love writing, and have been inspired by countless blogs by other people on similar wavelengths (and also because I can type faster than I can write), I'm finally getting on this bandwagon. I'm making a commitment to keep this up, even if no one ever reads it (I think at this point I would actually prefer it that way), in order to make sure I'm actually working through my stuff.
So right now, this is just for me. But maybe at some point, it will mean something to someone else. And if not, at least it's out there. And that's all for now.
